Stubbornness

I know I’ve done this before
Walked away too many times
Turned my head the other way too often

You chide me but I am deaf
To me it’s a moot fact
That this flaw cannot be made correct

So I did it again
Because I know I cannot make myself try
I hate myself but it remains
That this is my story

The many times crying did nothing
Having given up on happiness
Never began or tried harder

No precedent, no courage, no faith
You know I cannot risk
What I don’t know or trust

So I did it again
Because I know I cannot make myself try
I hate myself but it remains
That this is my story

Perhaps a shining moment in time
I will stop my tears and smile
I will make myself try
And change the heart inside
The story of love regained...

I am willing...
Give me time...
Will you not?